Recurring Nightmares – I’m Addic

What would you do without this game?

We’re all addicts. Many of us have tried to quit before, and failed. Some have been successful in their cold-turkey severance from Magic for years, but they’re back. If you’re reading this article, you have an addiction. You can live with it, even enjoy it – but ask any crackhead on the street if they enjoy crack, and you’ll get the same answer every time. Cardboard crack. It’s not so far off the mark.

Monday morning, 6 AM. Alarm clock rings. I reach over to my phone, and shut off the alarm. Before I even get out of bed, I check Twitter. I browse through a sea of people I follow only passively, looking for friends in the timeline. How did GerryT end up in the Open? What’s Kibler saying about his deck? Has LSV paid attention to his account this weekend? 6:01 AM, and already getting my fix.

The Open Series was on the West Coast this weekend, which means a 3 hour delay. The events go late enough when they’re in the same time zone, so staying up to see the finals when it’s going to end at 2 AM is insane. I jump on Safari and check out the results. Caleb Durward’s deck finally won an event, huh? Odd, we’ve been testing it for weeks, and having marginal results at best. The rest of the top 8 is filled with combo. It starts to make a little more sense.

Jump in the shower, and off to work. I hit my desk at 7:15, after brewing up a fresh pot of coffee. My other addiction, and the only thing that gets me through ten hours of sitting in a cube, faceless if not for the drastic distinction between my face and the rest of the worker bees.

I check through the emails from the weekend, and respond as necessary. Pull up a blank page in Microsoft Word. The white page stares at me, mocking me with its cold stare. Nothing in my life is as terrifying as that blank white rectangle. To take my mind off the task at hand, I pull up an Internet browser. I lose myself in the articles of the day on any website offering them. I don’t read every article, but the ones I read are more in number than the ones I pass by. More and more Legacy is covered every day, and the amount of required reading just goes up and up. We’re spoiled by our riches these days. I can remember all too well the days not so long ago where a Legacy player didn’t even bother with articles, since none of them were about the format they loved. The rare Legacy article by a Vintage player was met with angst-fueled derision, as that guy obviously didn’t know what the true story of “our” format was. How dare he suggest Trix as a viable deck in Legacy? Didn’t he know we had spent years testing that deck, only to decide it wasn’t good enough? Didn’t he read our obscure message board?

These days, nary a day goes by when some site or another doesn’t feature a player who has recognized the merits of the format we hold dear. Our obscure message board has gone from a haven of elitism in a wasteland of upturned noses, to a respected resource for information on the up-and-coming, to a forgotten realm of never-weres ruminating on yesterday’s technology. The cycle of life continues around us, and we brew…

The blank white page stares back at me.

Eventually, the synapses fire in my mind, and thinking happens. I’m two-thirds of the way through the coffee pot, and the clock strikes 11. One mouse could never eat it all. Killroy speaks the truth. The page begins to fill, and the words begin to flow. Faster and faster, and without fail.

It’s Monday night, 10pm. We’re done with our dinner, our workout, our chores. As we vegetate in front of the television, my mind wanders over the course of the day, and I can’t help but think about what I wrote, and how it affected me. How will it impact the people who read it?

Tuesday, 6AM Less tweets about Magic this morning. As we distance ourselves from the weekend, there are less relevant things to discuss. Some of the grinders are in transit, others are testing on MTGO. Some of us have day jobs.

The daily routine continues. I read, and read, and read. Tuesdays are bland. Despite the return to work that comes with Monday, it’s Tuesday that really gets me down. I never really could get the hang of Tuesdays.

I spend some time in the evening goldfishing. I don’t have any event to prep for, and I don’t have a deck I’m in love with, but I sure do like my Commander decks. Mono-G storm combo. Turn 2 Seton. Turn 3 Glimpse of Nature. A slew of overpriced Druids ensue. I cast a Natural Order for Gilt-Leaf Archdruid. I land a Skullclamp. Thirteen creatures later, I cast Genesis Wave for 22. It’s so simple, even a caveman could do it. I get bored of green goldfish, so I turn to Balthor. I assemble seven mana by turn 4, and shift my moral compass. It sure is easy when your opponent is in a glass bowl. Or, in my case, asleep.

Wednesday morning – anticipation wakes me moments before my alarm. I spring from the bed and power through my morning routine. I’m ready to head out the door by 6:25, but instead, head to my office chair. My article is live today, and I can’t wait to see the response.

Recurring Nightmare – Witty Article Name

Sigh. Although it’s only been up a few hours, the expectations are high. I know that people aren’t always going to hit the reply button, but I can’t help my hope. Deep down, I know I’m not alone.

We write because we have to, not because we want to. We write to feel connected. We write because we have something to say, even if we don’t always get the point across. We write because if we didn’t, we’d feel like we’re ignoring this part of us that explodes from our fingertips with a fury that can’t be matched by a thousand women scorned. We write with passion, with feeling, with soul. We write to be read – to be heard by others who share our conviction, and to feed on that energy. It fuels us, it sustains us, and whether we’re willing to admit it or not, it drives us to stare at the blank page week in and week out – to face our demons, and to force our fear back with the flowing word.

My day goes on. I keep a tab open in my browser all day, refreshing reverently, waiting to see what you all have to say. I know it makes me lame, I know it shows I’m needy, but I cannot help myself. Sometimes, I reply. Most of the time, I don’t. I find my foot being placed firmly in my mouth more often than any real progress made from my added commentary. It’s a lesson I should take into other aspects of life. Sometimes the right words are found in silence.

Eventually, some people respond. I read their comments, and try to discern who they are. Sometimes it’s a friend. Sometimes, it’s an acquaintance that I’ve played at an event. Sometimes it’s a member of our once-important, now forgotten forum. Most of the time it’s someone I’ve never met.

It’s an odd experience, being recognized. I’m not the kind of person who will ever get used to it, despite my inherent need for attention. I’m not so egotistical as to ignore that the root cause of that need is insecurity. Who am I, to be recognized? I’m just this guy, you know?

Thursday, and the end of my week. The benefit of working four tens, realized. The routine progresses as it has all week, the articles are read, and the comments are checked. The minutes tick down, as I anticipate the coming flood. The drought has lasted four days and four nights, and I have been forced to smoke my shake, as they say, until my next score arrives with the weekend.

The weekend comes, and I am alive.

Thursday night is Legacy night. Our local events bring a pool filled with more ringers than randoms. Without a doubt, these 16 man events are some of the hardest Legacy events out there, and we face off each week for scraps worth little more than testing. Each of the locals have been mainstays in the format since its inception, and have done their fair share of establishing the foundations of Legacy as it’s known today – even if they’ve never been heard of outside our own little corner of the map. They’re the backbone of the EPIC in The EPIC Storm, or have piloted Landstill when it featured Mana Drain, or they managed to test enough games of UR fish to establish Aether Vial as a legitimate Legacy card when Goblins still ran Recruiter. They may not be household names, but they certainly helped propel some of the players who are to the level they’re on. This town knows this format.

I bring along my deck of the week, and wait for pairings to arrive. Over the next four hours, I will be frustrated half to death as my deck fails to perform to expectations, and I manage a meager 2-2 record, finishing without prize. Meanwhile, the kid who plays Armageddon Stax every week decides to pilot Burn, and finishes at X-0. Such is the local tournament. My lips have been whetted. I cannot escape this warm blanket of addiction, and must get more.

Friday morning. Day off. Testing day. I wake late – for me, 9am is about as late as it gets. Long gone are the days of sleeping until noon. After years of waking early, your body assimilates to the alarm, and you find it difficult to win that test of wills. The alarm clock is more patient than you are. Eventually you learn that no amount of staying up late will ever again allow you to sleep like a college student, and you submit to the fact that you’re going to go to bed at 10pm. I rarely make it that early, to the constant dismay of my girlfriend, who requires a significantly larger amount of sleep than I do. I blame the coffee. The battle between caffeine and slumber rages on.

Errands performed, I head to the bottle return, where Alex Artese works during the week. Patronized by the lowest class citizens, I feel rather exposed as we sit with thousands of dollars in cardboard strewn about the table as homeless and hopeless come into the shop with bags full of plastic gold. One gentleman lets us know he’s hauled over $400 worth of scrap and bottles this week – averaging over $20 per hour of work. This gives me an eerie insight into what kind of money these people make with an “honest” day’s work. $1600 per month, tax free, is nothing to sneeze at. Of course, you’d need to trade your bed for a cardboard box and a highway overpass, and trade your cardboard collection for a shopping cart. I think, given the choice, they’d still gladly trade places with you should you be willing. Perspective is a matchup I didn’t expect to face today.

We slam decks into each other for a few hours, the hum of Pandora playing on the box in the background. We reach no conclusions that we didn’t already know. Go for the Throat is good in Team America, but bad against Affinity and Painted Stone. Goblin Welder beats Merfolk. Green Sun’s Zenith is excellent at winning Goyf Wars. Counterbalance is bad right now.

Friday night is not Magic for me. Some of you can probably relate. It’s funny how girls can recognize that FNM does in fact stand for Friday Night Magic, and yet still not believe it. To be fair, given the decision between spending my Friday night in a room full of adolescent teens, and spending it with an attractive girl who is genuinely interested in me (and interesting to me) is, well, not really much of a decision really. I spend a quiet evening in, and enjoy every minute.

Saturday comes with Sealed. Once again, I wake to the tune of household chores, and finish them with a vigor that can only be seen in my life under two circumstances:
1) I have somewhere to go that I actually want to be.
2) I have to go.

I round out the morning with a few games of Momir Basic, Jhoira Basic, or MoJoSto on Magic Online. 10:30 rolls around and I head to the store. My Sealed pool is mediocre, as they always are. The only time I’ve gotten a truly busted pool this block was when, out of 12 pools opened, there were 3 Molten-Tail Masticores, 4 Phyrexian Vatmothers, 5 Mimic Vats, and 3 Hand of the Praetors opened across 7 of the pools. My own pool featured one of the Masticores and a Sword of Body and Mind. It was not the strongest deck in the room. Generally, my pools are more dual lands and Inexorable Tides than Hoard-Smelter Dragons. Today is no different. Still, I manage to put up a respectable 3-0-1 into the top 4 split, and head home. The evening is spent doing other things with other friends. I periodically check the Twitter feed and the SCG live to see how my friends are doing in the Open series. Gerry is winning. Alex isn’t far behind. It must be nice to be the only two guys with two byes in the tournament. Sure, they have to be good to get there, but they’re partaking in their own private gravy train, and we’re all just along for the ride. I used all three versions of there their and they’re in that sentence. Victory tastes like Greek yogurt. Maybe it’s just lunch.

Sunday, bloody Sunday, and the Legacy Open has arrived. Once again, I’m glued to the internet, anticipation firing every nerve in my body. A lazy day around the house is sporadically interrupted by my thirst for information, as I sit in front of the monitor watching coverage. Somehow, I manage to time my breaks so that I never actually see Magic being played, but get to hear Adrian Sullivan pretend to know what’s going on, and Gavin Verhey actually get it. Bertoncini stops in and says hi during his two byes. Must be nice.

A part of me longs to be a part of that scene. A much larger part of me recognizes the difficulties associated with the grind. An even larger part still understands that my world requires a stability that can’t be given by the struggle for a top 8 prize and an appearance fee. Responsibility is my master, and a burden that I’ve placed on myself. I did so knowingly, and even eagerly, and I don’t actually regret my decisions. Having a 40-hour-a-week career isn’t the sexy lifestyle that grinding tournaments may be, but in the end, it’s the highest EV. Despite that knowledge, or perhaps because of it, I tear myself away from my life in spurts to focus on the coverage.

By the end of the night, the weight of the week sits heavy on my mind. I’m already beginning to feel the pressure of the blank pages in front of me, and of the dull monotonous drone of the office life. The next four days will be taxing as I slowly sink into the familiar feeling of withdrawal. It’s been three powerfully lived days in a row as my pusher has mainlined my drug, and the reality is setting in that the next hit is a long way off. As my head hits the pillow, I wonder what I would have played had I been at the Open, and think of Forcing Ad Nauseam as I count sheep tokens jumping over Steel Walls.

We live for this. We are defined by this. What would our lives be like without it? If it were taken from you tomorrow, how would you live? You would survive, but what would you fill up your life with? Can you imagine yourself without this game? Can you define yourself outside of it? It means so much to us all, but in the end, it is only a game. A great one, perhaps, but a game it remains. I ask myself these questions, and find no easy answers. I ask, and maybe asking is enough.

Personally, my life is dedicated to Magic to a degree that I could never have imagined. It has become this overwhelming force in my life – you can either ride the wave, or be crushed by it. I’m not certain that this is the healthiest way for me to spend my time or my energy, but may be powerless to change – for now. I have no doubt that a time will come when that all changes and Magic takes a back seat to the “important” things in life.

I can only hope that when that time comes, it takes something less than an intervention for me to recognize it. In the meantime, I’ll be here, in my own personal grind.

Until next time, I wish you the best of luck with your own addiction, and remember – keep your stick on the ice.

~ Adam

PS – My dad’s birthday was this Monday. I don’t know if he’s reading, but if you are, happy birthday, Dad.

PPS – I was pleasantly surprised at the response to the article on Shandalar last week. Expect to see (much) more on that soon.

58 thoughts on “Recurring Nightmares – I’m Addic”

  1. I really liked this article. I had a smile on my face for almost the whole time. Well done 🙂

  2. I’ve spent the last 4 hours thinking non-stop about Magic. I’m reading about a format I don’t even play. Yeah, addiction is the right term.

    “I used all three versions of there their and they’re in that sentence.”

    Nicely done.

  3. It is currently half 5 in the morning for me in england and, despite having to be up in 2 and a half hours, i have stayed up to read the next days articles on CFB (hoping for the standard guantet that i’ve already watched on youtube to be uploaded). Even though I’m no PTQ grinder and can’t even afford to buy the 4 JTMS for my deck (don’t tell kyle!) i understand this addiction you speak of 😛 Will probably see you this time next week for your article then. Thanks for the article!

  4. Man, your article last time lead me to download shandalar and battle it out.

    Mana burn – such a terrible rule. 🙂

  5. Well reading the comment part made me feel bad for not commenting before. I have always looked forward to reading your articles on legacy and commander they are always insightful. I love both of the formats and am grateful to have someone write about them.

    P.S. If you have a take on a Niz Mizzet deck i would love to see it

  6. I think it’s awesome that both your article and Kyle’s went up on the same day. Both are awesome. Good work!

  7. A somewhat tongue in cheek article that would otherwise be depressing, and just starting to assemble sneak snow I follow it like no other. More mainline please? A bit adicted.

  8. Great article, one of the best I’ve read in a while, and I was honestly just coming to find a good read on legacy 🙂

  9. Seems like this article was just as much for the reader as for you. You briefly touched on your need to write, but i think this article focused more on yourself and your thoughts. “In the meantime, I’ll be here, in my own personal grind.” This is a perfect example of writing for yourself. Personally, I think this was a great article for all magic players to put things into perspective.

  10. Dunno if you’ll read this now or in a giddy state at the office, but this was a fantastic article that I’m sure we can all relate to and that brings a lot of introspection.

  11. I’m addicted to MTG, I have no problem admitting to that. I was forced into quitting cold turkey several years ago during Masques block as every worthy opponent quit or moved away. A while after I got a hand me down computer I some how found myself reading MTG strategy articles on two sites despite not having cards, not having money to buy cards and not having a place to play. The closest to a paper scene in my city right now is FMN played by kids so young I’d rather chat up their mom’s than play cards with the players. Eventually Channel Fireball’s video content eventually got me itching so bad despite being completely broke and being technologically handicapped I now have an MTGO account and draft regularly and occassionally even have budget constructed decks to play in the 2-man ques.

    Sidenote on FNM – I think Friday was a horrible day choice on Wizard’s part that pretty much says ‘we feel our players are social rejects with nothing to do on Friday nights,’ some times true but the player base would have a better chance of expanding and retaining players if they encouraged play on Thursday night or Sunday afternoon (the local club holding meetings on Saturday nights was largely why me and all my friends quit as we hit legal drinking age).

    I can’t even remotely afford to build an online Legacy deck but it’s my favourite format to read about by far. Sorry I don’t usually post on the articles I read and give you your feedback fix but thanks for providing them. Has much more to do with my not posting or even reading comment sections much than not enjoying your work. I’ll be hear reading but I’ll probably go back into quietly lurking now but thought since you mentioned it one post letting you know I appreciate the writting would be appropriate.

    P.S. Legacy videos would be awesome.

  12. Great article, something every magic player can enjoy regardless of their format preference.

  13. I really like your articles and after seeing how much the comments mean to you, I felt bad for not commenting more often. And yeah more shandalar would be awesome!

  14. I’ve been an avid reader of your column but never commented before now as I’m sure is the case for so many others. Reading this article I felt as if I was having a conversation with myself. Your struggles with this “crack” and the writing style in which it’s conveyed, perfectly encapsulates my feelings towards this game. I constantly find myself reading your articles instead of studying for the test I have to take the next day. Keep up the good work, and keep writing about legacy. It’s an amazing privilege to have so much new content on the format we all love so much. Hopefully the current trend of rising prices doesn’t kill it for those now trying to enjoy what we have been enjoying for years.

  15. Wasn’t this what you wanted four years ago? More support to the point where you always had something good to write about? Well you got it and plenty of it. Don’t you just love it.

  16. So judging by your very heartfelt narrative I am going to propose a hypothesis: That casual is like weed: its a gateway drug and the effects aren’t that bad. Eventually you get into standard (alcohol) and start shelling out for tier one decks. More and more of your disposable income goes to the habit, and you play all of your freetime away. Slowly, as your need deepens, you get farther and farther back into the eternal formats until you become addicted to vintage: the heroin of the MTG community. You spend all your money acquiring beta copies of the the power nine. Your girlfriend leaves you because you were so sleep deprived from reading mtg articles all night before, you fall asleep during sex and insult her for only having one color in her deck. You lose your job because your boss catches you on MTGO, eventually you have to sell your power, but the addiction is just too serious. You fail to qualify for the pro tour, the one last chance you had at self respect and decency, and upon failing, you hit rock bottom. Refusing to give up your favorite EDH cards, you build a house out of them in an alley, and mutter to yourself: “Balthor, Balthor please resurrect my failed body into your army of magic zombies”

    Please, lets just try to be functional addicts.

  17. zzz+3d_blasphemy

    Like so many others I’m sure, I look forward to your articles more than any other author’s on this site. I feel that far to many people ignore the human aspect of the game and how it can affect your life. Seriously, this game can ruin relationships, lose jobs, and anything else you can think of.
    I am also a writer, currently in my final year of college. I try to balnce 50+ hours a week at a manufacturing plant, a wife and son, school, life’s responsibilities, and try to fit writing and magic in there. I get so close to breaking down sometimes but when I find articles like this I can see some light in the distance. I am working on a series of articles about the human aspect of magic and wish others would put more emphasis on it in their work. I admire the way that you blend together all the aspects of the game into your work. It would serve the community well to have more writers like you.

  18. An excellent article 🙂 I also find myself reading, and enjoying your articles even though I dont play Legacy.
    Keep it up
    I’m now going to find the shandalar article, i must have missed it.

  19. Fantastic read. I’m new to the format, so I try to read as much info online as I can find. Would you (or any other veterans to legacy here in the comments) care to help out a fellow addict with some links to legacy related sites? Thanks again for the article look forward to seeing more from you.

  20. Feel the comment love bro. yyour articles are some of the most anticipated of the week. They are always well written and insightful. (Generic i know but still true.) Do you have any opinion on old school high tides by old school i mean pre candelabra of tawnos, and what do you think of thrun the last troll as an edh general?

  21. Nicely done. I also have an office job, so I can commiserate with you on its sheer brutality. Thanks to this fine article, I have decided to live another day.

  22. You’re right, tuesdays are rough… first comment on this site, thought this article really deserved it. Its been nice to read about how people fit Magic in to their “normal” lives. After just getting back in to magic probably a month ago it has been on my mind non-stop, so this has been a great article for me!

  23. I feel like I’m commenting purely out of guilt for not commenting before(your fault for making me feel guilty!), but in 110% honesty, the article was fantastic.

  24. Awesome article! This one hits lots of your readers, which are in the same position you are (myself included). Not only the topic was perfectly chosen, but the article is so well-written.

    Keep writing about the best format ever, Legacy, and hope to see some other EDH articles too!

  25. Yup, I often wonder what the hell I’m doing spending all this time on this game. I’m on a winning streak right now, which makes it even worse, because it somehow justifies the madness. “Addiction” is the only correct term for it, and it’s quite potent. I’m taking up other hobbies just to pull myself from this hobby (it is *just* a hobby, right?), but in the end I’m just cutting more hours of the day and more time from work to try and squeeze everything in. Madness over a silly, geeky cardgame that I obsess over yet don’t even tell most people about for fear of looking like too much of a dork.

  26. You have an honest voice, a good tone, and a studied read on the format. You have built something here that is a rarity on the site: an article good enough to rate honest criticism.

    With all that going right about your writing, your central premise is off. Magic is not your addiction. No one enjoys his addiction. Partaking of the addictive substance brings you up to even, makes you feel okay. You clearly feel better than okay playing Magic.

    “We _____ because we have to, not because we want to…It fuels us, it sustains us…”
    These are the words of an addict. Now what did you fill in that blank with? It wasn’t “play magic.”

    You’re selling your central point short in ways you wouldn’t in articles of yore. It may truly be the case that we are addicted. That argument was here an excuse to spout on about yer week just to get an article out there and make the white rectangle monster go away. And honestly matey, you sound like a cool dude and all but I don’t give a damn about yer slice of life and no one does.

    Don’t get lost in your own head. Write what you know. The ref may not have called this one, but I felt your own stick in my gut.
    It’s time to take yer own advice,
    and keep yer stick on the ice.

  27. Enjoy your time now. Eventually the pretty girl that enjoys your company becomes your wife, a mortgage is obtained, a child or two comes. Magic is pushed to the fringes of our lives. The one more draft at 9:30 after the house has gone to bed, the Saturday pre-release events every quarter (assuming the family has no plans of course). Enjoy these times.

  28. I really enjoyed this and all your other articles. I also wanted to know what you thought about servant grindstone in other shells or colors? Maybe with more control cards and the addition of dreadnought plus stifle and a little less all-in than Caleb version.

  29. Being a second year college student, i can relate to this article better than most of the other hundreds i have read here. If i am not on GGS or CFB, i am testing online. If i am not testing online i am talking to friends back home about testing. Sometimes getting texts from my buddies that didnt come to school with me at 7 in the morning that say ” vindicate is good”. Its a scary feeling when i put off my 6 page paper to test the number of Stoneforge mystics should be run in my rock deck. I am currently typing this comment in my World history class. So i get it, it is overwhelming but i like the way it feels.

  30. Great Stuff! I sure hope whoever signs your paychecks doesn’t read the “I count my days numbered” comment…

  31. As a casual fan of legacy I always like reading your articles because of how engaging (read funny) they are. Today’s was engaging in a very personal way and I enjoyed it immensely! Also, it is very coincidental that this and boggemas’s article went up on the same day. Regardless continue writing and I second the talk about high tide

  32. Awesome read, I can relate to so many points it’s not even funny.

    Keep it up, you’re by far one of the most interesting writers around.


  33. Yeah, great article – great writing. This game really has a way of involving “us” beyond the actual time playing. I think I’ve spent much much more brain cells thinking about magic than about my university stuff these last years…

    But hey, it makes sense. Life is most strongly felt in the games we play, from when we are kids, to the flirty game of love we play with women, to playing magic or when we whistle in the shower. It’s a shame that many of us are put in situations where we have to make a living by working in a god-awful office or the like… For those that feel trapped in a lifeless 9 to 5, I hope you make some future plans to emancipate from it and something more meaningful.

  34. Happy birthday Adam’s dad!

    Fantastic article as always. Come for the Legacy content, leave with a life lesson.

  35. MORE SHANDALAR! I got into it since you wrote that article and it is awesome. Any props for sinkhole/strip mine .dec? The game has some silly potential.

  36. “but get to hear Adrian Sullivan pretend to know what’s going on”

    I like to call it “Fuzzy Math with Adrian Sullivan”

    He invents game states and comments only to be shut down later when the other guy points out how his last 5mins were completely irrelevant as he remember the turn wrong. Or the how he miscounts burn spells/Storm count.

  37. Great article. Definately share your sentiments as a tradesman working @ times 80h work weeks and wanting to play far more Magic then currently able to. It’s a tough ride.

  38. This is easily the best article printed on CFB to this date – and definitely the most humorous yet insightful text I’ve read the last couple of monts. Good work, Adam.

  39. Cool article. Thanks for writing!
    Also, I’d love to hear more about your Seton deck… Sounds like my kind of deck for sure. Did you write about it somewhere before, and I just can’t find it?

  40. Well, shit, thanks for the article. I am pretty sure if it wasn’t for Magic I could have gotten laid more in High School, not because Magic wasn’t cool or anything silly like that; no, I am purely saying, I would have had more time period, to pursue other such things. Addiction, yes, Sir.

  41. Luis Scott-Vargas

    This was an awesome article, and definitely speaks to many of us. I too would like to see some sweet Shandalar content =)

  42. Really dug the Hitchiker’s guide references.

    Some of your rants were absolutely incredible. To drive my fear back with the flowing word. Classic. Definitely gonna steal that.

    I know how you feel. The absolute passion for the game, the drive, the zeal… but also the need to balance it with the rest of your life. Its a balance I am still working on, and wish you the best in holding yours.

  43. Really nice article, written with wit and humanity. And I totally relate to your feelings on tuesday.

  44. Adam, you captured The Dirge of the 40-hour a week work lifestyle, ho humm. Mournful, but accepted – I feel your hurt. Addicted: I wonder how many hours I spend, while at work, just thinking about the interactions between Stifle and/or LED and/or Qasali Pridemage. How many hours to I drift off and think about a better way to make a Helm-Leyline deck. Not even playing… just thinking about the game.

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